Okay, this doesn't quite apply this week considering I had an extended weekend due to the holiday, but I am always pretty happy to see Friday.
When I had my old job, I used to beg for Friday. Unless I was on-call, in which case I just hoped I wouldn't get too many calls. One part of my decompressing at the end of the work week was to blast my iPod or the radio in the car ride home, and literally sing as loud as I possibly could. My fellow drivers in the inevitable rush hour traffic must've thought I was certifiably insane, but it was just the release I needed.
The truth is music has been and always will be tied to my emotions. If I am angry, the music I tend to listen to is loud and angry and probably involves some screaming. If I am sad/happy/content or just need a good ol' dance fest...I can tie it to music. If you saw my iTunes library, when I say rock to pop to country to oldies to instrumental, I am being completely honest.
Sometimes the lyrics just hit me right where they need to. Other times the lyrics bring feelings up that I didn't know I had hidden.
I find solace in music.
And I got way off topic, but get me talking about music and you realize that it is and always will be something I am completely passionate about, even if I never have the relationship with it that I had while living in NYC.
I hadn't sang really loud in a long time because work wasn't pissing me off anymore and didn't need that release, but today felt like a good day to do it. Sorry to my neighbors for that, but the truth is I don't even care who hears me. I like to sing. I may not be the next American Idol, but it will be something I will always do.
My ex (the egotistical, selfish, manipulative moron) used to tell me I couldn't sing and would actually tell me to stop. I used to think about that from time to time, going back to wondering if he was right. Now, I don't care what he said. I know that I am no professional singer but I also know that I can hold a tune.
Well, as I digress once again...Happy Friday everyone! I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend.